Long Overdue Post.... Again...

Its the start of the new semester. The start of a new beginning.

Well actually the semester started like a week or two ago. Just let not mind the details.

Remember that part in which I made a note to myself to update this blog more? Well I lied, I forgot.

Anyways, I'm okay so far. Couple weeks ago, I had an appendicitis and had to get an appendectomy. I came back home in pain and dizzy from the pain meds I took (Never taking that again.) The problem though was that the weekend I had the appendicitis and the operation was the weekend before exams. And I really needed tutoring for BC Calc. Well I couldn't go back to school for like 4 days, due to recovering from the operation. Didn't see my girlfriend for like a week and half, wasn't able to study, dizzy from the pain meds (After the dizziness, I dumped my meds for Alieve), and I had to make up my exams. ALL ON THE SAME DAY!! 4 exams in a row was crazy. And then there was one on Tuesday.

Overall it didn't go so well.

BC Calc: CDE
Anatomy: Exam Grade: C
Chinese: Barely a B
AP Lit: CCC
Software Apps: Exam Grade: B

You can guess my parents were uber pissed at me. And well... the rest is history.


Anyways, yesterday was also a miserable day. My girlfriend looked clearly upset at the end of the day, I asked if something was wrong. She says nothing is wrong. I don't press further for fear of her blowing up at me and I can't break that mind set. Needless to say, she was upset and in the end it didn;t end well. I get slapped and yelled at since apparently I "don't care". She broke down and cried on my shoulder.

I got home and felt miserable. Ever have that feeling. That feeling you did something wrong apparently and you don't even know why? That feeling of fear that the relationship is over. I certainly did. I tried to kill my emotions, but that just stored up the feelings inside. In the end, I ended up even angrier, confused, and even more miserable. I cried myself to sleep.

I didn't want to see her in the morning today. Too sad to do so. But instead she came to me and we made up. Slow progression at first, but we're okay now. Or at least I hope. I hope she is okay now.

Man, now that I think about my dreams, I wonder if I can actually accomplish them. My dream is to have a family, living a great house in a great neighborhood. However my dream jobs are kind of everywhere: doctor, conductor, and even a voice actor. I even contemplated stunt actor or wrestler. Oh man... damn.